Crescendos are fabulous

It's Monday but I don't mind. I feel good, had a great weekend of being productive and I have accepted Team Canada's defeat. I would reckon I'm ready for the week ahead.

I've thought about before, and I've thought about this many times since, was how my relationship with God would change when I realized I would be a father or was a father. I often thought that I would need God even more because of my low self-image of how I feel I will be as a father. Now let me just say that all this banter is relative I know as my belief of whether I need God more or less should not be dependent on the situation but for me, and I think for many, this is how we categorize things. Since Shanie and I have decided upon South Africa as our adoption country I have been reminded of these thoughts once again. I have often hoped that being a father would be an extra driving motivator in wanting to be a better person for the sake of my child, and an extra motivator in pushing me toward a deeper dependency to God. I view fatherhood as a major responsibility; not only the time it takes responsibility but more importantly the child's future welfare responsibility. I can only hope that this ideal continues to burn in me and propels me to strive toward excellence as a father and more fervent obedience to God who is my Father.